Monday, October 5, 2009
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it's the saddest day of the year i guess.
or maybe in my life..?
the main point is, it's the saddest day ever.
man, my eyes are all reddish & it looks like it's going to be swollen anytime.
i'm scared i wont be able to concentrate in my studies.
&exams are just TOMORROW.
let me repeat that again, TOMORROW.
yes, i'm all alone again.
for the third time i think.
i really want to see my grandma.
i'm not there to see her even when she's sick.
& now, she died, i'm still not there to see her.
i felt guilty.
what a good granddaughter am i.

G:Grandma.
M:Me.
once she called me when she's in hospital,
chat & chat & chat.
G: what if one day i die?
M: i dont know. why say like that?
G: i dont know.
M: dont think too much, you'll be fine. you won't die until i meet you ok. stay strong. i'm there for you even though i'm in singapore.
sadly i didnt get to see her before she died.
she keeps saying that she wants to die, &she will die any moment or she'll die soon.

superstitious thing that happen today.
i dont know what does it really mean.
but i think that is superstitious.
this morning, during math class, all of a sudden, AS IN REALLY SUDDENLY,
SUDDENLY SUDDENLY, my nose bled.
i really had no idea.
i was shocked, everyone was shocked.
no it can't be the weather because it's windy today.
so yeah, this noon then i got to know that my grandma just died this morning.
maybe my nose bleeding is a sign.
i dont know. just saying. :)

R.I.P OMA.

I LOVE YOU.

5 October 2009.